Just a quicky....

Just back from a 4km walk and a lovely lazy evening meal ...lol....hey come on now!  Anyone who has read more than 1 of my posts just knows I can't keep totally on the wagon!

The "meal" was a bowl of oats with grated apple, sprinkled with cinnamon, I have to say it is one of my favourite "meals".

Anyway I forgot to mention that a while ago ....before the Walk In Her Shoes Challenge, my hubby bought me a present, a Samsung Gear Fit!

How lucky am I, right?

I obviously had a Samsung phone (Note 4) and hubby was originally going to get me a fitbit ....then he asked the sales assistant to chat to me, which he did, after lots of pros and cons explained I walked away from the phone call thinking I was getting a Garmin.....when I got home from work hubby surprised me with the Gear Fit.

I have to say that it is AWESOME!!  I love that I can have the time and the number of steps I've walked at the same time.  That was a great feature when I was walking 20,000 steps each day!!  When you hit 5,000 and 10,000 (the recommended number of daily steps) the watch buzzes and shows a little medal lol

Also I've signed up for another round of Michelle Bridges 12WBT.  I did this back in 2013, lost some weight then fell off the wagon ...totally off the wagon!!  Hence the need to rejoin! lol

Any Hoo thats your lot for today!!  Bed will soon be calling :)

Crikey ....twice in as many days!

So.... yes, I'm here again!

We had dinner quite late yesterday and I almost threw the towel in and didn't walk ....BUT .....you'll all be pleased to read that I actually DID go for a walk, only 4kms but hey better than sitting on my butt eating junk right??


It's been a busy day here so far, had to do a mega grocery shop as my dad has come to stay with us, so no more empty fridge, it is packed with good foods, easy to eat fruits for grabbing something in the run.

I'll be off for another walk tonight but I'll have to make sure I leave earlier, so I better start getting dinner cooked very soon!!

So come on people what can I do to stay motivated, what motivates you to stay on track each day?

Are you better at staying on track with food or exercise?

What are your easy 'go to meals' when you days are super busy?

What are your favourite or loathed exercises?

Look forward to reading your responses!!

Ciao for now MJ :)

It's been a while....

Well it's been a while since I've posted anything at all so I thought I better write and let you know how I went with my Walk In Her Shoes challenge.  I managed to walk just over 100kms in 1 week!!  I was actually amazed at how much I enjoyed it ....well apart from the blisters all over my feet!  I think there were times that I had bandaids on every single toe!!

To celebrate I purchased some new exercise clothing ...but in true MJ style, I've been out two or three times since then!  Each night I lay in bed thinking how I'm going to get up early and walk then walk again after work each day .....they say Ït's the thought that counts" ... bullcrap!!  I think about it all the time but it's not helping me loose any of these excess cms off my ever expanding belly!!

As I've decided to address my 'mammoth mammary condition'.....(giant boobs) so hubby and I are in the process of saving the $10,000 for a breast reduction, I'm hoping to get it done by the end of this year sometime....something to look forward to ...well maybe not the pain but certainly the smaller boobage!

So you see, I really do have something to work towards, so I've decided that if I get back to walking and blogging, I'm sure there will be some of you out there to spur me on......?  I hope!!

Two weeks from today I'll give you all some numbers and we can hopefully ...fingers crossed ...watch the numbers together as they decrease!!  I don't want to have little boobies and a giant belly!!
So let me know if anyones out there and reading and I'll keep posting and walking, talk soon, MJ x

Yeah....heavy as a house ...but still here

So here I am again.....it seems that I can't do anything as well I can pile on weight!!!

Now up to my heaviest ever!!

Very depressing....but as always ready to give it anoth (yes another!) go!!

So I've started logging meals again in my fitness pal and have downloaded map my walk too, purchased a new bike (one of the pedal power kind...not another motornike!) so I intend to use that to get about town and get back into walking, I really do get so much enjoyment out of it.....will even drag the elliptical x-trainer into the back room, which is now airconditioned so no excuses that "it's too hot!"

To keep me honest I've pledged to walk 100kms (just over 62 miles) in one week in March for CARE Australia, if any kind souls would like to donate, heres my page
The 2015 Walk In Her Shoes Challenge  please give generously :D

Still here.......

How’s the weight loss going.....well it's going ....not well but it still going :) 

I've been re-reading all of my earlier posts, gee I was so energetic wasn't I?  Where the hell did that all go? I've had a pretty full on day today, so arms, legs and back are feeling a wee bit tender lol

I cleaned up the garage area then decided to detail my car....never, ever again!  I can feel muscles that I didn't even know existed!  The end result is pretty amazing though (even if I do say so myself, oh wait I already did lol).

Car is sparkling clean, free of dog hair and smelling lovely!  Me on the other hand, I was filthy dirty (didn't help that I stood in dog poo when I was hosing the car YUK!)  I am now showered and feeling as clean as the car though ....and free of dog poo smell :)

I've been very hit n' miss with my food (nothing new there), but I have been good today - only had a couple of cups of coffee and a handful of grapes and almonds.  YES I know that isn't enough ....I'm making shepherds pie and vegies for dinner tonight so that will more than make up for any deficit in calories lol

Tomorrow I'm going to drag my lovely neighbour out for a walk, oh I went for a walk this morning (pre-cleaning garage and washing car) with my youngest son and the dogs.  So I've certainly done more exercise than I have in a VERY LONG WHILE!

Swapping the old (blue) tiger for the new one!

Hubby and I have been away a few times since my last post.  First trip away we headed off to Bundaburg and Bagarga, coming back through the town of 1770 and then up to Rockhampton and home.  Second trip we headed to Hervey Bay, lovely!  The next morning we rode (oh all the trips were done on the motorbike) down to Caboolture to see hubbys Nanna, she's 97 and totally gorgeous!  Then stayed in Brisbane that night, looked at a new bike (ended up buying it - trading in our trusty tiger - for a newer model Tiger Explorer) then rode that night to Toowoomba then home the next day.  It was FREEZING in Toowoomba, I was snuggled up to hubby as far as I could to stop the cold wind from cutting me in two!!

Next weekend we're heading to Noosa, 3 nights at a beautiful resort.  We've made a pact that we'll go walking as much as we can, I'm looking forward to a breakfast cruise down the river though....so excited I can't wait!!!  The food usually goes mental when we're away ...but again we said we'd eat out and throw caution to the wind at least 1 night ...the rest of the time we're going to be good and make healthy choices!

OK that's your lot for now....ciao!

The Awful Truth....

Well....the awful truth, the truth is I have not only fallen off the 'weightloss wagon'....it's hardly even a blip on the landscape anymore!

I have taken to eating non-stop, oh yes I mean non-stop!  Cake, biscuits, chips, chocolate...anything I can get my hands on!

What the hell??  All the weight I was losing is back on ....but worse still every damned kilo has brought a couple of it's mates with it too!!  I weigh more now than I did at the start of this journey!



Depressed?  Oh yes......  

Sad?  Yes.....very......  

Unmotivated?  Well I think that goes without saying really!


So now I have had to go and buy more clothes, in a bigger size ....not happy Jan!!

My beautiful new rings!

The worst thing has been that my darling husband bought me a beautiful new wedding band and engagement ring, when we got married he always said that he'd buy me something even better when we were more financially stable.  So there I am in the jewellers a few weeks ago, dreading trying the rings on as I thought they were going to be too small....my already chubby stumpy fingers had 'grown' as the weight has piled back on....anyways, I managed to get both rings onto my fat little sausage finger....but it was VERY tight, the jeweller assured me that it was fine and was just becasue it was a different shape to my last rings.

No ....it wasn't fine.  We went in last week to drop them both off to be resized ...bigger of course!  Upside, I get to pick them up on Saturday ....yay!  Hubby did say that once my 'mojo came back' we'd be back to have them shrunk down again .....the poor woman didn't really know what to say and I certainly didn't know where to look!  

My hubby is great, he always tells me he loves me regardless and of course I believe him.....but (you knew there was going to be a 'but' didn't you?) I feel so sad about how I look that I spend hours (yes hours) whinging and moaning that nothing fits and constantly putting myself down....because ...well I'm so uphappy with myself!  He must get sick of hearing it, only once has he said that only I could change that.....whilst I know he speaks the truth, it still hurt.  I was wanting to wallow in my self pity for a bit longer.....so it kind of stopped me in my tracks lol!

So, now I'm even further from my 'goal weight' than I've ever been.  Not really ready to share my current weight with the world...I will but just not today, one step at a time...so they say!

So anyone who happens to be following or reading this blog ...let me know how you stay on track, what do you do to get back on the wagon once you've strayed?  All and any help would be more than welcome!  

Insecurities be gone!!!

If only it was really that easy??

I don't want anyone to take offence to this (as there is certainly none intented!) but I think of myself as a kind of 'reverse anorexic'...I have wardrobes and drawers FULL of clothes....in fact so many that I can't actually fit it all in! (Sadly some of my adored - but much too small - clothing has now been packed away into a port until my waistline strinks down to what I imagine I have!)

So yes the 'reverse anoroexia'....in my MIND I THINK and SEE myself as slim and healthy and I look amazing in my clothes........then I put them on and look in the mirror...............needless to say it usually ends in tears, clothing being thrown from one side of the room to the other, more tears, more self loathing.....poor hubby telling me I look fine and me not believing a word of it!

Darling hubby rang me on Thursday and said we're heading out for dinner with friends next weekend....needless to say that I am now on the verge of a nervous breakdown worrying what I'm going to wear!!  I have another week of this to go yet!  With the added weight gain over xmas I can feel the anxiety creeping through my body when I even begin to think what might look 'nice', I'm sitting here almost daring myself to get in my room and FIND something NOW!

I am alone with this?

Do any of you feel like this too?

This is just insane!!